Friday, February 01, 2008

RAndom Typing

Yey! Magsusulat na ulit ako! Kumusta ka na lemonink? Active ka pa rin ba? Nakakasawa na rin ang design mo. Ayaw mo palitan? Ano? Ako magpapalit? Eh wala na ako maisip na ipalit sa yo eh. Malaki ka na dapat ikaw na pumili ng design mo. Hindi lagi ay makapag-oonline ako para palitan ka. Hindi ka marunong? Antagal na natin magkasama, hindi ka pa rin marunong? Eh nakatatlong designs ka na nga di ba? ung una ung maitim, tapos naging puti, tapos naging malalemon. Hindi ba madali lang? Oo. Hangga't hindi mo sinusubukan, hindi mo malalaman kung madali o mahirap. Kaya dapat pagbalik ko nakapagpalit ka na ha? Ha? O siya, nakatalikod na naman ang aking magaling na superbisor, babalik na ulit ako sa ginagawa kong pagbabasa ng Ranma 1/2, pagdadownload ng mp3, at pagfrefrenster. Salamat sa pagentertain sa akin. Pramis, babalik ako't kuwekuwentuhan kita ulit ng buhay buhay ha? Jan ka lang. As if naman may mapupuntahan ka di ba? Hehe. Nararamdaman kong tinitignan ako ni TL eh, kaya dito muna ako ha? Ughmm... Anong bago sayo? Oi... Salita ka naman. Kuwentuhan mo ako. May bumibisita pa ba sayo dito? Si Nante lang ata sumusubaybay sayo ah. Atleast nakakaala siya. Kaibigan mo ba si umaantabay? Hindi? Makipagkaibigan ka naman. Wala ka rin naman ginagawa di ba? Malawak ang mundo ng internet kaya madami ka makikilalang bagong sites. Oo, alam kong ang dami dami dami dami nga ng mga sites na parang nakakatamad lumabas lahat at makasalamuha lahat, pero ganyan din sa totoong buhay. Kailangan mo talagang lumabas sa comfort zones mo at buksan ang sarili mo sa mga bago. Gawing mong motivation ang pagiging boring ng nasa iisang lugal lang, masaya sa labas. Kaya lumabas ka pa rin. Oi, hinid kita sinesermonan ha. Isa pa lang sinabi mo, ang dami ko na sinabi no? Eh ganun talga, hindi ka naman kasi nagsasalita eh kaya ako na lang ang dada ng dada. hehe. pagpasensyahan mo na. Sige na nga tama na ang sermon, alam ko naman na alam mo ang ibig kong sabihin eh. Hayan napatagal na ang pagsstay ko sa site mo. Actually hindi mo naman site to eh, notepad ako nagtatype. Pero iniisip kasi kita kaya parang nasa tabi mo na rin ako. Sabi nga nila, kapag ka ang mahal mo ay nasa puso mo, mas malapit pa sila sa inaakala mo, at pwede silang magpakita sayo kahit kailan mo man gustuhin. Lam mo, totoo yun. Narasan mo na ba magmahal? Talaga? Sino naman minahal mo? O share ka naman jan. Hindi na nakatingin si TL, pero interesado akong malaman kung sino na mahal mo kaya di muna ako aalis. Sige na kwentuhan mo ako. Dali. Sino? Kilala ko ba siya?



I'm gonna stop talking to my blog before I reveal something cheesy about myself. Ever experienced that? You talk to someone and when you think you're actually getting to know them, you're actually getting to know yourself more. It may not be that obvious with a conversation going on, but still there is a large part of the getting-to-know-you-times that is actually getting-to-know-myself too. I vaguely remember a philosopher or maybe a theologian who said the same thing, but it is true. It gets obvious when you're talking to yourself or even talking to something inanimate such as a blog. Ha. Most of my earlier essays, reflections , even blog entries are actually products of conversations with the self. Like a dialectic, or a socratesian questioning. I ask the questions, a part of me answers. Then there's a contradacting reply, and then a debate, and it goes on til both sides of my brain agree to something. It's like an angel/demon conscience speaking to me and making me decide or even formulate one liners or lemuel classics. I don't know how others do their thinking but that's how I do mine.

.... ...... ..... I was thinking of smething about the two way getting to know process.... but in my stream of consciousness, i forgot... .... .... ..... ...... Ughmm..... Ughmmm.... Forget it. I'll remember when I'll need to.

My english is getting badder. I haven't had much practice lately. All though I'm still at the call center, I don't speak with customers anymore. I'm an SME (Subject Matter Expert) now so I only talk to agents who have questions about their work or the product or any tsr related concerns. And because most agents are more comfortable asking in Tagalog, I also always answer in tagalog. There are a few agents who ask in English, so it is only with them and a few supervisory calls where I practice my English. So I'd probably be online more often now to continue honing my written English. Or not. Ha! I only went back to writing here because I couldn't do what I regularly do - manga! I've been reading a lot of Manga lately, don't the blog entries reveal so? I actually have a lists of manga's that I check every week. Lemme name them, lemme name them.... (hitman reborn, fairytail, vagabond, jojo's bizzare advs, berserk, zetman, naruto, one piece, tender, airen, elfenlied, ranma, d-grayman,.... and a few more)
I'm sucker for good stories. And mangas are just so easy to read. I still read some books, but since I'm mostly at the office and the internet is really fast here and there isn't really anything hard with my work, I read manga! I don't like to think that I'm getting dumber here. There are still growth oppurtunities such as training, getting to know new people, speaking in front of a big group, communication skills, leading a team, and microsoft excel! But today, my TL is right behind my back! So here I am writing...

But i may consider writing again. I may need to have a manga break even for just a while and then update mr lemonink here. I know some people who when you meet do not run out of stories even when you see them everyday. I think it is natural for talkative person to be like that but i aso think that there is something about a talkative person that not lets them run of stories... it's remembering what happened. I am not a talkative person but when there are times that there is a need to speak up such as yosi breaks or coffee dates, I run out of things to say. Ofcourse that is not the only requirement to being a talkative person, there's also the proud personality, the confident aura, the ability to share stories. Talkative people always have something to say, not because they might have experienced more, but because they have the above qualities. I'm just saying this while I'm typing so I really haven't thought of it that much. (Here! Here! Here's another example of the two way process... I'm sharing a thought that i really haven't thought about yet through the talking-to-self-method, but in my attempt to share it, I'm actually understading it more! There... my pagkaphilosophy major is coming out).

Ahem. Anyway... The reason for my saying that is because I see those qualities present in two people i know who are very opposite each other. I have a 17 year old cousin who only stays in their house playing Ragnarok 24/7. He only comes down to eat and goes out to buy Coke or sometimes to play at the neighbor's internet cafe if ours is down. Now that guy is always noisy! During the rare times he comes down he always has something to say or to laugh at. And they're never funny at all. but still he never runs out of those stupid jokes of his. There are even times that I increase the volume of the TV or just not talk or respond at all but no no no, he doesn't sense that, he keeps sharing those stupid jokes, blurting out nonsense, and laughing out loud. That's the first kind of a talkative person: young and unexperienced. There's another one: the old and experienced. He's an officemate. 28 years old. He has experienced a lot - places, activities, people, animals, women. He always has something to say, and although his jokes are old, he is still able to make a few laugh and initiate conversations. Some consider him as mayabang, others do not mind, others find him funny.

Two very different people, talkative in different ways. But similar in the basic qualities: proud personality, the confident aura, the ability to share stories, being able to remember details. I can say more about each but then this is beginning to sound like a college essay so I'm gonna end it here. In the end, my point will be that my blog writing will be a means of remembering what happened to me, a means to being able to communicate and share them in my own words, so that i can also be talkative in the good sense of the term.

Thus, Mr. Lemon ink here will be alive yet again.